Me and My Girls

Consider Me a Memory...... Consider Me the Past.....

2009-08-31T08:41:55Z

<i>If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done Let's not drag this on Consider me gone.</i> Yep......... I've got issues again........ Yep............. It's the housemate again........ So, she comes home from work yesterday and she goes -straight- to her room as opposed to sitting and talking to me. All of a sudden I get an IM wit her asking me about the apartments I had been looking at -prior- to her coming down here. Yes I simply told her, found it a -little- odd, and went on my way. Then, I go to Facebook and only 5 minutes prior she had posted: "--------------- is enjoying some alone time with the first man in my life, Tucker. And looking for apartments." Then, after confiding my fears to a mutual friend I come to find out that she had bothered tell -him- and allowed ME to get the news via Facebook!! She wasn't even going to SAY anything to me according to the friend!!

Two's Company....

2009-08-13T06:48:21Z

....But three's a crowd....

So, I'm here in my new house that I'm splitting a $400 a month rent on with a room mate. We've got to cats (hers from her home and one we both adopted about 3 weeks ago) and NOW she's got a boyfriend that won't leave!

Anyway, tonight she brought up the idea of him sharing the space with the two of us and splitting things like rent and groceries and having him around to do repairs. Yes, it's true I have been grumbling over and over in my mind about if the boyfriend is spending SO much time here that why ISN'T he helping us pay the rent but.....I just don't know if I feel comfortable in the thought that he'd be staying here too.....

Because honestly? That IS a little awkward......

She's given me time to think about it. Thing is, I don't know if I should bring it up with my folks (the landlords of the place) and see what they say therefore putting it on them. Or if I should just tell her that I'm uncomfortable with that.

What do you think?

I Don't Know If We Have Changed For the Better...

2009-01-21T06:09:38Z

But We Have Been Changed For Good!
Obama! Obama!
God! I love being part of history! I love saying I helped to vote the man in!
I have a good feeling about his whole presidency.

Aww man, I so want to be at the Youth Ball being held in DC right now! Yes, I'm watching the Inaugural stuff on CNN right now as Pres. Obama and First Lady Michelle are going from ball to ball. They are just so amazing to watch. Now I know how those my age during JFK and Jaclyn must have felt....

Anywhere But Here

2008-09-07T08:45:26Z

Ever wondered what was out there? Beyond what you grew up knowing I mean.
Have you ever wished that you could just drop everything and just hit the open road without looking back? Sure, you might not know where you're going but that's half the fun. Let you heart lead and follow your dreams where ever they may lead.
I nearly followed mine today both ways: 4 miles outside Jefferson, SD and driving on county road 150 towards Correctionville, IA this afternoon. The only things that held me back were A) lack of money/no job, B) high gas prices, C) I hadn't packed for such a trip, and D) I have my family here. I couldn't simply up and leave. At least not without letting my dad know....

I do have a dream that's calling me though.
My mind is restless and my heart is weary!
Yes, I do have that particular guy I want to make mine!

God.....why do you make it so tempting, yet so difficult to do?

On Engagements....

2008-08-08T05:39:02Z

Well, my brother (Charlie) is now officially engaged.
That's right, I'll be gaining a sister-in-law July 17th, 2010.

What do I think about it? I'm thrilled.
I mean, it was bound to happen and everyone that know them were only wondering about when it would happen. And I'll get to help plan the wedding.
However, I would like to be a part of the wedding party.
You see, last night we had a dinner to celebrate the engagement. Somehow, it was brought up that my littlest brother (Colin) was decided to be the Best Man. Fair enough. After all he -is- family and I was like 'that's cool'. Then my brothers went upstairs and twas just us girls (Mom, me, Colin's girlfriend, and the bride-to-be) and the bride-to-be brings up her dilemma....

She doesn't know who she will pick as bridesmaids beyond her sister (who is rightfully Maid-of-Honor). Now, granted a) she has a lot of girlfriends and b) the wedding isn't for another year and a half. However, one would think Charlie might have offered up my name....
Alright, I'll give him that. He may have after all. And no, not being picked as a bridesmaid won't make me hate her. Far from it. It's just....I have a right to be in my brother's wedding party.

Don't you think?

I'm All Shook Up!

2008-06-29T23:33:17Z

Gah! Why do I always forget about this blog??

My summer has been going well so far.
I will be playing Mayor Matilda Hyde in a local production of "All Shook Up"!
For once in my life of theater, I've actually received a role I had my eyes set
on!
Rehearsals have been very productive and we are in our final days before the
show opens.

Might be stuff up on YouTube eventually....

In other news, the day -right- after I get done with "All Shook Up" I'm leaving on
a jet plane with a friend to Milwaukee, WI in order to visit and stay with another
friend for a week. I'm SO looking forward to that time spent. It'll be nice
to 'get away' from home for a bit.

Omaha Shooting

2007-12-07T00:31:30Z

Columbine...Virgiana Tech, they seemed so distant and...unreal. Welcome to this sick world we live in. Sure...there's a rulebook...but they don't apply if you have a gun it seems.

Westroads Mall.
Omaha, Nebraska.
December 5, 2007.

Now it's hit near home......
A 19 year-old male named Robert A. Hawkins shot 14 people in the store of Von Maur. Killing nine people, and injuring 5, two critical. He was said to run around the mall shooting at random and after going back into Von Maur, shot himself.
People came running out of some doors, knowing what had happened. Most of them were shaken.
In stores people were put on lockdown having no idea what was happening. Police arrived with in six minutes of the first call. Later, people in stores were led out to safety.
The people who died were just ordinary people, who went shopping at mall, having no idea that their life would end......

RENThead's Night of RENT (Nov. 27th 2007)!!!!!

2007-12-02T10:54:53Z

EVERYONE was amazing. And I do mean everyone. Normally I expect one or two to be off, or just not quite my taste. It came as a surprise to me that absolutely everyone sang brilliantly. Of course it helped that Roger was the original S. African Idol winner (Heinz Winckler) and that Collins (Anwar Robinson) was one of the Top 10 in American Idol's 4th season. Normally, I'm against the idea of pop idols in live theater as it takes away opportunities from actors. However, I must say this was definitely an exception to my rule. They certainly did not pull any shortcuts with this cast!

Okay, now onto the cast:
I was hugely impressed with the first song (RENT). The mikes worked perfectly and I could hear every word. The music was loud and very good. The stage was filled up nicely. The Orpheum in Sioux City doesn't have the largest stage, but it was decent sized and didn't seem too crowded. This was also the first chance to hear the entire cast as a whole. Beautiful!

Mark - The night we saw the show, he was played by understudy Corey Joseph Mach. His performance only goes to prove that the entire cast was great. He held the humor as well as the loneliness Mark encompasses.
Angel - Adorable!. I was terribly jealous of the guy's legs... It's just not right!. His voice was also beautiful. Amazing that a man can sing that high! His death also made me all out cry.
Collins - Anwar Robinson was certainly different in appearance from any other photos I've seen of Tom Collins. However, the braided hair added a nice touch to the NYC bohemian teacher-turned-anarchist. When he sang "Santa Fe" and "I'll Cover You", the tenor was certainly a different touch though still beautiful. I cried at the reprise of "I'll Cover You" during the funeral scene of course.
Benny - John Watson reminded me very pleasantly of Tay Diggs. I normally don't care for the role of Benny. However, Watson made me want to watch even him.
Mimi - The Mimi I saw was also an understudy. When she first came out, I was a little concerned. She looked quite different from how I imagined her: much darker skin color (not hispanic at all), and hair cropped short and very wild. That was all until I heard her sing however. She sounded *incredible*! I quickly forgot about her physical appearance. ESPECIALLY when she and Heinz sang "Another Day/ No Day But Today" together. They definitely had chemistry together!
Joanne - I loved her too. Especially the purpley streaks in her hair. Onyie Nwachuckwu rocked the stage as the lesbian-no nonsense-lawyer too. She and Maureen (Christine Dwyer) had shown the same chemistry Winckler and 'Mimi' had. The couple were simple on fire during 2nd act's "Take Me Or Leave Me", their voices blending perfectly. Nwachuckwu's frustration/dispare with Maureen was was also well portrayed all throughout the show.
Maureen - Christine Dwyer had energy! This is good, as the first time you truly see Maureen is right before her performance/protest close to the end of the 1st act. Maureen is the female character I'd love to play and Dwyer reminded me as to why. I even mooed when she asked. Of course, what true RENThead doesn't?? My friend I was with that night claims I was the loudest.
Roger (Did you think I'd forget him?!) - Heinz Winckler!! What else can I say? Let's see....oh yes! He has a wonderfully lovely voice! Roger is my favorite character in the entire show and Heinz had done the role complete justice in my eyes! Being from South Africa, he had never even heard of RENT until the movie arrived there. This was a big plus as he could make Roger his own instead of worrying about having to fill such shoes as those of Adam Pascal's (the original cast 'Roger' and that role in the movie). The moment he came on stage, cheers rose up. I was one of them of course. And when he sang "One Song Glory" I actually swooned!

~STAGE DOOR~
Naturally we stopped at the stage door afterward to get actors' autographs and to snap some pictures. Oh. My. GOD! Heinz is even prettier up close! He also spoke in his gorgeous accent. It was all I could do to keep standing as he placed his arm around me for a picture. Shame he's married He was VERY polite and very appreciative of the entire audience that night. Of course, Sioux City is know for that. My friend and I was able to get most of the leads save for Maureen, Joanne, and Benny.
While my friend and I were leaving, some of the actors approached us and asked if I could give them a ride back to the Holiday Inn. It was FREEZING outside and apparently their shuttle had yet to arrive. Containing squeals, I drove Corey Joseph Mach (later finding out he was the 'Mark' that night) and Dustin Brayley (Steve, among others) to the hotel, which wasn't very far away. They were extremely polite and enjoyed listening to the Spanish version of RENT we had playing in the car. Upon arriving, my friend and I got their autographs and I got a picture with them before they went indoors. The one quote I remember from Corey is, "We'll probably get a Note tomorrow saying 'Please don't ask fans for rides after the show' or something." It still seems like a dream to me. However, I have pictures to prove it's real.
That was a night I will never forget!

Great Job all! Thank you Corey and Dustin for making my night!!!!!!!

Fic Prompts

2007-11-14T08:32:38Z

Yes, I know..... The first entry in my journal is all about fanfic prompts. For those of you who aren't interested in Sailor Moon fanfic, feel free to simply ignore this. I shall have picfics and such of my family up shortly.

For those of you who like to read Sailor Moon fanfic, enjoy!

Tables for fanfic50

001.	Love	002.	Hate	003.	Pain	004.	Joy	005.	Fear
006.	Trust	007.	Betray	008.	Promise	009.	Appreciate	010.	Annoy
011.	Death	012.	Blood	013.	Grave	014.	Life	015.	Breath
016.	Mind	017.	Think	018.	Share	019.	Toy	020.	Guard
021.	Moonlight	022.	Sunshine	023.	Wish	024.	Undecided	025.	Heaven
026.	Dispose	027.	Illusive	028.	Inside	029.	Home	030.	Sleep
031.	Phone	032.	Discover	033.	Investigate	034.	Confide	035.	Follow
036.	Threat	037.	Survive	038.	Together	039.	Remember	040.	Mistake
041.	Try	042.	Fall	043.	Redo	044.	Experiment	045.	Hollow
046.	Missing	047.	Broken	048.	Sympathy	049.	Collide	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Finish	002.	Nothing	003.	Alone	004.	Desperate	005.	Down
006.	Tongue	007.	Hair	008.	Kiss	009.	Smile	010.	Imagine
011.	Defy	012.	Notice	013.	Celebrate	014.	Morgue	015.	Charm
016.	Bath	017.	Dance	018.	Scream	019.	Kick	020.	Feel
021.	Stutter	022.	Learn	023.	Fight	024.	Steal	025.	Fascinate
026.	Forget	027.	Hurt	028.	Never	029.	Close	030.	Fade
031.	Direction	032.	Road	033.	Question	034.	Between	035.	Trap
036.	Dress	037.	Admit	038.	Chance	039.	Believe	040.	Dream
041.	Shine	042.	Tied	043.	Conspire	044.	Couple	045.	Undercover
046.	Care	047.	Creep	048.	Empty	049.	Bones	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Temptation	002.	Addiction	003.	Greed	004.	Faith	005.	Delusional
006.	Innocence	007.	Stained	008.	Procrastinate	009.	Dirty	010.	Lie
011.	Forgive	012.	Lose	013.	Want	014.	Bury	015.	Choke
016.	Burn	017.	Change	018.	Regret	019.	Slip	020.	Smirk
021.	Fragile	022.	Secret	023.	Past	024.	Fantasy	025.	Enough
026.	Dream	027.	Waste	028.	Hope	029.	Note	030.	Hug
031.	Passion	032.	Hold	033.	Right	034.	Wrong	035.	Strong
036.	Wind	037.	Paranoid	038.	Moment	039.	Song	040.	Touch
041.	Shake	042.	Psychic
001.	Heart	002.	Stone	003.	Cold	004.	Hole	005.	Cut
006.	Queue	007.	Turn	008.	Apathy	009.	Innocence	010.	Stay
011.	Drunk	012.	Attitude	013.	Rational	014.	Possible	015.	Temperature
016.	Goodbye	017.	Hero	018.	Point	019.	Try	020.	Dinner
021.	Scar	022.	Perfect	023.	Solution	024.	Science	025.	Proud
026.	Pretend	027.	Late	028.	Forever	029.	Defend	030.	Gone
031.	Determined	032.	Abducted	033.	Communication	034.	Disguise	035.	Drugged
036.	Tragedy	037.	Butterfly	038.	Effect	039.	Design	040.	Substance
041.	Smoke	042.	Paranormal	043.	Spooky	044.	Spy	045.	Morph
046.	Pulse	047.	Dare	048.	Whisper	049.	Insecure	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Focus	002.	Room	003.	Sink	004.	Story	005.	Pool
006.	Hook	007.	Maze	008.	Bold	009.	Crush	010.	Heal
011.	Branch	012.	Reign	013.	Echo	014.	Shadow	015.	Dusk
016.	Dawn	017.	Plain	018.	File	019.	Charm	020.	Plan
021.	Blink	022.	Grin	023.	Spoon	024.	Panic	025.	Snow
026.	Patrol	027.	Opportunity	028.	Vertical	029.	Horizon	030.	Replace
031.	Fool	032.	Intervention	033.	Gift	034.	Restless	035.	Weight of the World
036.	Wild	037.	Harsh	038.	Initiative	039.	Pang(s)	040.	Primal
041.	Bribery	042.	Theft	043.	Impatience	044.	Pray	045.	Merchandise
046.	Survivor	047.	Captured	048.	Uncivilized	049.	Poke	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Spiral	002.	Ghost	003.	Control	004.	Bruise	005.	Destiny
006.	Element	007.	Fade	008.	Darkness	009.	Fire	010.	Blood
011.	Bound	012.	Bolt	013.	Wormhole	014.	Sacrifice	015.	Pause
016.	Space	017.	Doubt	018.	Ashes	019.	Save	020.	Write
021.	Insult	022.	Dare	023.	Morph	024.	Heal	025.	Burden
026.	Gate	027.	Travel	028.	Cage	029.	Wake	030.	Seed
031.	Ring	032.	Karma	033.	Traitor	034.	Stars	035.	Voice
036.	Backwards	037.	Present	038.	Salvation	039.	Restrain	040.	Myth
041.	Hologram	042.	Reaction	043.	Alien	044.	Burn	045.	Brave
046.	Necklace	047.	Creation(ism)	048.	Guilt	049.	Reality	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Lure	002.	Bounce	003.	Cursed	004.	Message	005.	Abyss
006.	Unreciprocated	007.	Descent	008.	Holiday	009.	Obsess	010.	Mystical
011.	Text	012.	Melancholy	013.	Honest	014.	Mundane	015.	Worn
016.	Solitude	017.	Jaded	018.	Depressing	019.	Anticipation	020.	Sensible
021.	Power	022.	Hidden	023.	Desolate	024.	Insanity	025.	Façade
026.	Secret	027.	Technology	028.	Astrology	029.	Breakdown	030.	Machine
031.	Miscommunication	032.	Variety	033.	Sarcasm	034.	Garden	035.	Transmit
036.	Mutual	037.	Hell	038.	Encounter	039.	Invisible	040.	Twilight
041.	Data	042.	Wasteland	043.	Embrace	044.	Scars	045.	Poison
046.	Enigma	047.	Scramble	048.	Exchange	049.	Collapse	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Angel	002.	Reason	003.	Prank	004.	Caught	005.	Anxiety
006.	Rock	007.	Hire	008.	I can’t make you mine	009.	Race	010.	Heartbreaker
011.	Language	012.	Wait	013.	Tongue-Tied	014.	Crystal Clear	015.	Fraud
016.	Search	017.	Apart	018.	Personality	019.	Orange	020.	Crawl
021.	Alternate Reality	022.	Downstairs	023.	Pop	024.	Cliché	025.	Memory
026.	Bed	027.	Needle In A Haystack	028.	Shave	029.	Whatever	030.	Guardian
031.	Infidelity	032.	Fiction	033.	A New World	034.	Accuracy	035.	Fallen
036.	Original	037.	Abstract	038.	Imperfection	039.	Let’s Go	040.	Left Behind
041.	Potential	042.	Demon	043.	Jump	044.	Punish	045.	Over
046.	Deception	047.	Thunder	048.	Welcome	049.	Stop	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Always, All Ways	002.	Perfect World	003.	Brand New Day	004.	Face Down	005.	Unstoppable
006.	A Part Of Me	007.	Not Now	008.	By My Side	009.	Pieces	010.	Under Pressure
011.	Better Off Alone	012.	I'm Not Okay	013.	Hard To Say	014.	Walk Away	015.	Obsession (I Love You)
016.	Dirty Little Secret	017.	In Fate's Hands	018.	Go Away!	019.	Find Your Way Back	020.	Wherever You Will Go
021.	One Last Time	022.	Quit Your Life	023.	Breathe	024.	Lost Without You	025.	On The Way Down
026.	Somebody Help Me	027.	Wondering	028.	I Miss You	029.	Famous Last Words	030.	Same Direction
031.	Far Away	032.	Without Reason	033.	Everything You Want	034.	Someday	035.	Soul Meets Body
036.	Already Met You	037.	Keep Holding On	038.	Goodbye Again	039.	Me Against The World	040.	She's On My Mind
041.	Say The Word	042.	Don't Wanna Think About You	043.	Never Again	044.	It Wasn't Enough	045.	Bouncing Off The Walls Again
046.	Mistake	047.	Every Single Day	048.	Getting Away With Murder	049.	Promise	050.	Writers' Choice

001.	Rain	002.	Mirror	003.	Sanctuary	004.	Imagination	005.	Spirit
006.	Resign	007.	Abnormal	008.	Vision	009.	Heaven	010.	Hell
011.	Underground	012.	Soul	013.	Crystal	014.	Sunrise	015.	Disgust
016.	Improvise	017.	Weakness	018.	Bent	019.	Analyse	020.	Glare
021.	Speed	022.	Violence	023.	Everything	024.	Indifference	025.	Roam
026.	Psychosis	027.	Dark	028.	Twisted	029.	Attic	030.	Contain
031.	Monster	032.	Return	033.	Without	034.	Unnatural	035.	Doctor
036.	Spin	037.	Beam	038.	Honesty	039.	Slash	040.	Online
041.	Misunderstood	042.	Prevail	043.	Inconceivable	044.	Endanger	045.	Stare
046.	Supernatural	047.	Deep	048.	Sarcastic	049.	Limit	050.	Writers' Choice

Table for fanfic100

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.