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 <i>If you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done Let's not drag this on Consider me gone.</i> Yep......... I've got issues again........ Yep............. It's the housemate again........ So, she comes home from work yesterday and she goes -straight- to her room as opposed to sitting and talking to me. All of a sudden I get an IM wit her asking me about the apartments I had been looking at -prior- to her coming down here. Yes I simply told her, found it a -little- odd, and went on my way. Then, I go to Facebook and only 5 minutes prior she had posted: "--------------- is enjoying some alone time with the first man in my life, Tucker. And looking for apartments." Then, after confiding my fears to a mutual friend I come to find out that she had bothered tell -him- and allowed ME to get the news via Facebook!! She wasn't even going to SAY anything to me according to the friend!!

Two's Company....

....But three's a crowd....

 So, I'm here in my new house that I'm splitting a $400 a month rent on with a room mate.  We've got to cats (hers from her home and one we both adopted about 3 weeks ago) and NOW she's got a boyfriend that won't leave!
Anyway, tonight she brought up the idea of him sharing the space with the two of us and splitting things like rent and groceries and having him around to do repairs.  Yes, it's true I have been grumbling over and over in my mind about if the boyfriend is spending SO much time here that why ISN'T he helping us pay the rent but.....I just don't know if I feel comfortable in the thought that he'd be staying here too.....  
Because honestly?  That IS a little awkward......

She's given me time to think about it.  Thing is, I don't know if I should bring it up with my folks (the landlords of the place) and see what they say therefore putting it on them.  Or if I should just tell her that I'm uncomfortable with that.   
What do you think?
 But We Have Been Changed For Good!
Obama! Obama!
God! I love being part of history! I love saying I helped to vote the man in!
I have a good feeling about his whole presidency.

Aww man, I so want to be at the Youth Ball being held in DC right now! Yes, I'm watching the Inaugural stuff on CNN right now as Pres. Obama and First Lady Michelle are going from ball to ball. They are just so amazing to watch. Now I know how those my age during JFK and Jaclyn must have felt....


Anywhere But Here

Ever wondered what was out there? Beyond what you grew up knowing I mean.
Have you ever wished that you could just drop everything and just hit the open road without looking back? Sure, you might not know where you're going but that's half the fun. Let you heart lead and follow your dreams where ever they may lead.
I nearly followed mine today both ways: 4 miles outside Jefferson, SD and driving on county road 150 towards Correctionville, IA this afternoon. The only things that held me back were A) lack of money/no job, B) high gas prices, C) I hadn't packed for such a trip, and D) I have my family here. I couldn't simply up and leave. At least not without letting my dad know....

I do have a dream that's calling me though.
My mind is restless and my heart is weary!
Yes, I do have that particular guy I want to make mine!

God.....why do you make it so tempting, yet so difficult to do?

On Engagements....

Well, my brother (Charlie) is now officially engaged.
That's right, I'll be gaining a sister-in-law July 17th, 2010.

What do I think about it? I'm thrilled.
I mean, it was bound to happen and everyone that know them were only wondering about when it would happen. And I'll get to help plan the wedding.
However, I would like to be a part of the wedding party.
You see, last night we had a dinner to celebrate the engagement. Somehow, it was brought up that my littlest brother (Colin) was decided to be the Best Man. Fair enough. After all he -is- family and I was like 'that's cool'. Then my brothers went upstairs and twas just us girls (Mom, me, Colin's girlfriend, and the bride-to-be) and the bride-to-be brings up her dilemma....

She doesn't know who she will pick as bridesmaids beyond her sister (who is rightfully Maid-of-Honor). Now, granted a) she has a lot of girlfriends and b) the wedding isn't for another year and a half. However, one would think Charlie might have offered up my name....
Alright, I'll give him that. He may have after all. And no, not being picked as a bridesmaid won't make me hate her. Far from it. It's just....I have a right to be in my brother's wedding party.

Don't you think?

I'm All Shook Up!

Gah! Why do I always forget about this blog??

My summer has been going well so far.
I will be playing Mayor Matilda Hyde in a local production of "All Shook Up"!
For once in my life of theater, I've actually received a role I had my eyes set
Rehearsals have been very productive and we are in our final days before the
show opens.

Might be stuff up on YouTube eventually....

In other news, the day -right- after I get done with "All Shook Up" I'm leaving on
a jet plane with a friend to Milwaukee, WI in order to visit and stay with another
friend for a week. I'm SO looking forward to that time spent. It'll be nice
to 'get away' from home for a bit.

Omaha Shooting

Columbine...Virgiana Tech, they seemed so distant and...unreal. Welcome to this sick world we live in. Sure...there's a rulebook...but they don't apply if you have a gun it seems.

Westroads Mall.
Omaha, Nebraska.
December 5, 2007.

Now it's hit near home......
A 19 year-old male named Robert A. Hawkins shot 14 people in the store of Von Maur. Killing nine people, and injuring 5, two critical. He was said to run around the mall shooting at random and after going back into Von Maur, shot himself.
People came running out of some doors, knowing what had happened. Most of them were shaken.
In stores people were put on lockdown having no idea what was happening. Police arrived with in six minutes of the first call. Later, people in stores were led out to safety.
The people who died were just ordinary people, who went shopping at mall, having no idea that their life would end......
EVERYONE was amazing. And I do mean everyone. Normally I expect one or two to be off, or just not quite my taste. It came as a surprise to me that absolutely everyone sang brilliantly. Of course it helped that Roger was the original S. African Idol winner (Heinz Winckler) and that Collins (Anwar Robinson) was one of the Top 10 in American Idol's 4th season. Normally, I'm against the idea of pop idols in live theater as it takes away opportunities from actors. However, I must say this was definitely an exception to my rule. They certainly did not pull any shortcuts with this cast!

Okay, now onto the cast:
I was hugely impressed with the first song (RENT). The mikes worked perfectly and I could hear every word. The music was loud and very good. The stage was filled up nicely. The Orpheum in Sioux City doesn't have the largest stage, but it was decent sized and didn't seem too crowded. This was also the first chance to hear the entire cast as a whole. Beautiful!

Mark - The night we saw the show, he was played by understudy Corey Joseph Mach. His performance only goes to prove that the entire cast was great. He held the humor as well as the loneliness Mark encompasses.
Angel - Adorable!. I was terribly jealous of the guy's legs... It's just not right!. His voice was also beautiful. Amazing that a man can sing that high! His death also made me all out cry.
Collins - Anwar Robinson was certainly different in appearance from any other photos I've seen of Tom Collins. However, the braided hair added a nice touch to the NYC bohemian teacher-turned-anarchist. When he sang "Santa Fe" and "I'll Cover You", the tenor was certainly a different touch though still beautiful. I cried at the reprise of "I'll Cover You" during the funeral scene of course.
Benny - John Watson reminded me very pleasantly of Tay Diggs. I normally don't care for the role of Benny. However, Watson made me want to watch even him.
Mimi - The Mimi I saw was also an understudy. When she first came out, I was a little concerned. She looked quite different from how I imagined her: much darker skin color (not hispanic at all), and hair cropped short and very wild. That was all until I heard her sing however. She sounded *incredible*! I quickly forgot about her physical appearance. ESPECIALLY when she and Heinz sang "Another Day/ No Day But Today" together. They definitely had chemistry together!
Joanne - I loved her too. Especially the purpley streaks in her hair. Onyie Nwachuckwu rocked the stage as the lesbian-no nonsense-lawyer too. She and Maureen (Christine Dwyer) had shown the same chemistry Winckler and 'Mimi' had. The couple were simple on fire during 2nd act's "Take Me Or Leave Me", their voices blending perfectly. Nwachuckwu's frustration/dispare with Maureen was was also well portrayed all throughout the show.
Maureen - Christine Dwyer had energy! This is good, as the first time you truly see Maureen is right before her performance/protest close to the end of the 1st act. Maureen is the female character I'd love to play and Dwyer reminded me as to why. I even mooed when she asked. Of course, what true RENThead doesn't?? My friend I was with that night claims I was the loudest.
Roger (Did you think I'd forget him?!) - Heinz Winckler!! What else can I say? Let's see....oh yes! He has a wonderfully lovely voice! Roger is my favorite character in the entire show and Heinz had done the role complete justice in my eyes! Being from South Africa, he had never even heard of RENT until the movie arrived there. This was a big plus as he could make Roger his own instead of worrying about having to fill such shoes as those of Adam Pascal's (the original cast 'Roger' and that role in the movie). The moment he came on stage, cheers rose up. I was one of them of course. And when he sang "One Song Glory" I actually swooned!

Naturally we stopped at the stage door afterward to get actors' autographs and to snap some pictures. Oh. My. GOD! Heinz is even prettier up close! He also spoke in his gorgeous accent. It was all I could do to keep standing as he placed his arm around me for a picture. Shame he's married He was VERY polite and very appreciative of the entire audience that night. Of course, Sioux City is know for that. My friend and I was able to get most of the leads save for Maureen, Joanne, and Benny.
While my friend and I were leaving, some of the actors approached us and asked if I could give them a ride back to the Holiday Inn. It was FREEZING outside and apparently their shuttle had yet to arrive. Containing squeals, I drove Corey Joseph Mach (later finding out he was the 'Mark' that night) and Dustin Brayley (Steve, among others) to the hotel, which wasn't very far away. They were extremely polite and enjoyed listening to the Spanish version of RENT we had playing in the car. Upon arriving, my friend and I got their autographs and I got a picture with them before they went indoors. The one quote I remember from Corey is, "We'll probably get a Note tomorrow saying 'Please don't ask fans for rides after the show' or something." It still seems like a dream to me. However, I have pictures to prove it's real.
That was a night I will never forget!

Great Job all! Thank you Corey and Dustin for making my night!!!!!!!

Fic Prompts

Yes, I know..... The first entry in my journal is all about fanfic prompts. For those of you who aren't interested in Sailor Moon fanfic, feel free to simply ignore this. I shall have picfics and such of my family up shortly.

For those of you who like to read Sailor Moon fanfic, enjoy!

Tables for fanfic50
001.Love 002.Hate 003.Pain 004.Joy 005.Fear
006.Trust 007.Betray 008.Promise 009.Appreciate 010.Annoy
011.Death 012.Blood 013.Grave 014.Life 015.Breath
016.Mind 017.Think 018.Share 019.Toy 020.Guard
021.Moonlight 022.Sunshine 023.Wish 024.Undecided 025.Heaven
026.Dispose 027.Illusive 028.Inside 029.Home 030.Sleep
031.Phone 032.Discover 033.Investigate 034.Confide 035.Follow
036.Threat 037.Survive 038.Together 039.Remember 040.Mistake
041.Try 042.Fall 043.Redo 044.Experiment 045.Hollow
046.Missing 047.Broken 048.Sympathy 049.Collide 050.Writers' Choice

001.Finish 002.Nothing 003.Alone 004.Desperate 005.Down
006.Tongue 007.Hair 008.Kiss 009.Smile 010.Imagine
011.Defy 012.Notice 013.Celebrate 014.Morgue 015.Charm
016.Bath 017.Dance 018.Scream 019.Kick 020.Feel
021.Stutter 022.Learn 023.Fight 024.Steal 025.Fascinate
026.Forget 027.Hurt 028.Never 029.Close 030.Fade
031.Direction 032.Road 033.Question 034.Between 035.Trap
036.Dress 037.Admit 038.Chance 039.Believe 040.Dream
041.Shine 042.Tied 043.Conspire 044.Couple 045.Undercover
046.Care 047.Creep 048.Empty 049.Bones 050.Writers' Choice

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001.Temptation 002.Addiction 003.Greed 004.Faith 005.Delusional
006.Innocence 007.Stained 008.Procrastinate 009.Dirty 010.Lie
011.Forgive 012.Lose 013.Want 014.Bury 015.Choke
016.Burn 017.Change 018.Regret 019.Slip 020.Smirk
021.Fragile 022.Secret 023.Past 024.Fantasy 025.Enough
026.Dream 027.Waste 028.Hope 029.Note 030.Hug
031.Passion 032.Hold 033.Right 034.Wrong 035.Strong
036.Wind 037.Paranoid 038.Moment 039.Song 040.Touch
041.Shake 042.Psychic
001.Heart 002.Stone 003.Cold 004.Hole 005.Cut
006.Queue 007.Turn 008.Apathy 009.Innocence 010.Stay
011.Drunk 012.Attitude 013.Rational 014.Possible 015.Temperature
016.Goodbye 017.Hero 018.Point 019.Try 020.Dinner
021.Scar 022.Perfect 023.Solution 024.Science 025.Proud
026.Pretend 027.Late 028.Forever 029.Defend 030.Gone
031.Determined 032.Abducted 033.Communication 034.Disguise 035.Drugged
036.Tragedy 037.Butterfly 038.Effect 039.Design 040.Substance
041.Smoke 042.Paranormal 043.Spooky 044.Spy 045.Morph
046.Pulse 047.Dare 048.Whisper 049.Insecure 050.Writers' Choice

001.Focus 002.Room 003.Sink 004.Story 005.Pool
006.Hook 007.Maze 008.Bold 009.Crush 010.Heal
011.Branch 012.Reign 013.Echo 014.Shadow 015.Dusk
016.Dawn 017.Plain 018.File 019.Charm 020.Plan
021.Blink 022.Grin 023.Spoon 024.Panic 025.Snow
026.Patrol 027.Opportunity 028.Vertical 029.Horizon 030.Replace
031.Fool 032.Intervention 033.Gift 034.Restless 035.Weight of the World
036.Wild 037.Harsh 038.Initiative 039.Pang(s) 040.Primal
041.Bribery 042.Theft 043.Impatience 044.Pray 045.Merchandise
046.Survivor 047.Captured 048.Uncivilized 049.Poke 050.Writers' Choice

001.Spiral 002.Ghost 003.Control 004.Bruise 005.Destiny
006.Element 007.Fade 008.Darkness 009.Fire 010.Blood
011.Bound 012.Bolt 013.Wormhole 014.Sacrifice 015.Pause
016.Space 017.Doubt 018.Ashes 019.Save 020.Write
021.Insult 022.Dare 023.Morph 024.Heal 025.Burden
026.Gate 027.Travel 028.Cage 029.Wake 030.Seed
031.Ring 032.Karma 033.Traitor 034.Stars 035.Voice
036.Backwards 037.Present 038.Salvation 039.Restrain 040.Myth
041.Hologram 042.Reaction 043.Alien 044.Burn 045.Brave
046.Necklace 047.Creation(ism) 048.Guilt 049.Reality 050.Writers' Choice

001.Lure 002.Bounce 003.Cursed 004.Message 005. Abyss
006.Unreciprocated 007.Descent 008.Holiday 009.Obsess 010.Mystical
011.Text 012.Melancholy 013.Honest 014.Mundane 015.Worn
016.Solitude 017.Jaded 018.Depressing 019.Anticipation 020.Sensible
021.Power 022.Hidden 023.Desolate 024.Insanity 025. Façade
026.Secret 027.Technology 028.Astrology 029.Breakdown 030.Machine
031.Miscommunication 032.Variety 033.Sarcasm 034.Garden 035.Transmit
036.Mutual 037.Hell 038.Encounter 039.Invisible 040.Twilight
041.Data 042.Wasteland 043.Embrace 044.Scars 045.Poison
046. Enigma 047.Scramble 048.Exchange 049.Collapse 050.Writers' Choice

001.Angel 002.Reason 003.Prank 004.Caught 005.Anxiety
006.Rock 007.Hire 008.I can’t make you mine 009.Race 010.Heartbreaker
011.Language 012.Wait 013.Tongue-Tied 014.Crystal Clear 015.Fraud
016.Search 017.Apart 018.Personality 019.Orange 020.Crawl
021.Alternate Reality 022.Downstairs 023.Pop 024.Cliché 025.Memory
026.Bed 027.Needle In A Haystack 028.Shave 029.Whatever 030.Guardian
031.Infidelity 032.Fiction 033.A New World 034.Accuracy 035.Fallen
036.Original 037.Abstract 038.Imperfection 039.Let’s Go 040.Left Behind
041.Potential 042.Demon 043.Jump 044.Punish 045.Over
046.Deception 047.Thunder 048.Welcome 049.Stop 050.Writers' Choice

001.Always, All Ways 002.Perfect World 003.Brand New Day 004.Face Down 005.Unstoppable
006.A Part Of Me 007.Not Now 008.By My Side 009.Pieces 010.Under Pressure
011.Better Off Alone 012.I'm Not Okay 013.Hard To Say 014.Walk Away 015.Obsession (I Love You)
016.Dirty Little Secret 017.In Fate's Hands 018.Go Away! 019.Find Your Way Back 020.Wherever You Will Go
021.One Last Time 022.Quit Your Life 023.Breathe 024.Lost Without You 025.On The Way Down
026.Somebody Help Me 027.Wondering 028.I Miss You 029.Famous Last Words 030.Same Direction
031.Far Away 032.Without Reason 033.Everything You Want 034.Someday 035.Soul Meets Body
036.Already Met You 037.Keep Holding On 038.Goodbye Again 039.Me Against The World 040.She's On My Mind
041.Say The Word 042.Don't Wanna Think About You 043.Never Again 044.It Wasn't Enough 045.Bouncing Off The Walls Again
046.Mistake 047.Every Single Day 048.Getting Away With Murder 049.Promise 050.Writers' Choice

001.Rain 002.Mirror 003.Sanctuary 004.Imagination 005.Spirit
006.Resign 007.Abnormal 008.Vision 009.Heaven 010.Hell
011.Underground 012.Soul 013.Crystal 014.Sunrise 015.Disgust
016.Improvise 017.Weakness 018.Bent 019.Analyse 020.Glare
021.Speed 022.Violence 023.Everything 024.Indifference 025.Roam
026.Psychosis 027.Dark 028.Twisted 029.Attic 030.Contain
031.Monster 032.Return 033.Without 034.Unnatural 035.Doctor
036.Spin 037.Beam 038.Honesty 039.Slash 040.Online
041.Misunderstood 042.Prevail 043.Inconceivable 044.Endanger 045.Stare
046.Supernatural 047.Deep 048.Sarcastic 049.Limit 050.Writers' Choice

Table for fanfic100
001.Beginnings. 002.Middles. 003.Ends. 004.Insides. 005.Outsides.
006.Hours. 007.Days. 008.Weeks. 009.Months. 010.Years.
011.Red. 012.Orange. 013.Yellow. 014.Green. 015.Blue.
016.Purple. 017.Brown. 018.Black. 019.White. 020.Colourless.
021.Friends. 022.Enemies. 023.Lovers. 024.Family. 025.Strangers.
026.Teammates. 027.Parents. 028.Children. 029.Birth. 030.Death.
031.Sunrise. 032.Sunset. 033.Too Much. 034.Not Enough. 035.Sixth Sense.
036.Smell. 037.Sound. 038.Touch. 039.Taste. 040.Sight.
041.Shapes. 042.Triangle. 043.Square. 044.Circle. 045.Moon.
046.Star. 047.Heart. 048.Diamond. 049.Club. 050.Spade.
051.Water. 052.Fire. 053.Earth. 054.Air. 055.Spirit.
056.Breakfast. 057.Lunch. 058.Dinner. 059.Food. 060.Drink.
061.Winter. 062.Spring. 063.Summer. 064.Fall. 065.Passing.
066.Rain. 067.Snow. 068.Lightening. 069.Thunder. 070.Storm.
071.Broken. 072.Fixed. 073.Light. 074.Dark. 075.Shade.
076.Who? 077.What? 078.Where? 079.When? 080.Why?
081.How? 082.If. 083.And. 084.He. 085.She.
086.Choices. 087.Life. 088.School. 089.Work. 090.Home.
091.Birthday. 092.Christmas. 093.Thanksgiving. 094.Independence. 095.New Year.
096.Writer‘s Choice. 097.Writer‘s Choice. 098.Writer‘s Choice. 099.Writer‘s Choice. 100.Writer‘s Choice.

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